in a way we are figuring out ourselves by observing each other. that’s why there’s heavy emphasis on celebrity culture not bc u thjnk nice things is the way or whatever. but ur able to see someone’s life. as allowed by systems that let us in on these type of things and we don’t even know how things came to be to this. but we are in some way attracted to the idea of learning from each other. the emphasis here should not be to compete or to step on others in order to get ur way. i think there’s a way for everyone. bc there are many paths that lead to one. but attachment tends to make us make the most easiest way of mistake of what’s not stationary for fixed. for nothing is a guarantee. that should give us clue as to why attachment is unrealistic. but there are certain things of continuity. such as our human needs. at least for now. we can say that we need food and water just to sustain our life. maybe in the future we can be sustained by simply by nature. bc we would be not so dense. anymore. this density is reflected on our human behaviour. attachment. is sort of in a way being dense about urself. it becomes difficult ends it feels insurmountable or even it’s like the only thing ever. or the most dominant. sure. dominance here is applicable. but not in the way we like to think. all we have to do is follow the hand that points to the way for a moment and ask ourselves why even.
but gossip is quite common. it helps us figure out via story telling the many intricacies of our intertwined lives. if u had siblings u know rivalry. at some point. things can get dense and u may get so wound up that u wanna hate the other. this happened to me and my older sister when she used to be too aggressive with me. but that was part of the curriculum. i remember the night at my aunts house. we had to share a bed. it wasn’t too big either. her feet would be on my face. or we just didn’t like the other options. we had fight in the middle of the night and then well i don’t remember if she retreated or they separated us. but i almost thought i hate her. and mind u i was single digit age group then. it’s just a flash of memory. one of essential few i get to keep and carry with myself. maybe bc they were pivotal. but there i was caught myself almost utter the words. i hate her. but then i was like do i? bc i quickly envisioned a person who hates and i didn’t really enjoy that feeling. i had to reconcile to myself. do i really wanna carry this sort of thing about myself bc that’s too heavy. so i retreated my words. and calmed myself in the bed as i lied there. i knew it was injustice to me. i thought she was unnecessarily too aggressive . it wasn’t even about the objective but it’s delivery. such is with these things tho. but i didn’t hate her. i just allowed myself to realize the moment. wow this really sucks. why she does that i don’t know. but i don’t feel good about it.
and this is most of our relationships i nowadays too. it’s rude it’s crude and it’s all things abrasive. we are too wound up. especially lately this is expected. in a way it’s good too bc it gives us glimpse into where we were fooled. cos we would have to adjust how we got our previously acknowledged data in some other way. if u for instance reconcile an inner smth. it doesn’t negate ur experience if that person or situation u made sense of at first wasn’t the one bc smth did happen. so what ur trying to do is do the detective work of what happened. bc u understand that in order to overcome anything. today we have to know things. u don’t have to be special iq or whatever. it just takes general sense of basic curiosity as to what happens in ur life why and how these things work. it’s mechanism. relationships with one another. or else. what u hear can really pull u at different directions.
and u may even contradict urself. in some way as well. all of this happens. i say it’s better to get ourselves challenged bc that’s where the work begins. that’s when u put all that u realized in ur meditation to work. u roll ur sleeves up and get to it. u say u know what i dont see this as a punishment (we aren’t talking about system augments or intentinal neglect of leaderships and current issues that are artificial or calculated but the way of being and way of generel feeling towards how u process what happens to u in ur life such as struggles. u may say u were bad person in. past life and this is ur karma. if u dot. seee the artificial from organic how would u develop as true sense of self however ?) (that becomes. a lessons too)(systems don’t support spiritual errors or most errors our current lives have little to no room for such ). there’s smth i need to gain out of this. be teachable but learn from ur own process foremost . bc we never know what type of conditioning we may adopt however temporary especially during heavily challenging times. difficulties we face.
some of this theoretically is easy to fix. all we gotta do is put remedy where there is a problem. it could be a systemic issues. personality fix. a characteristic flaw or habitual way. doesn’t matter. it’s all part of the work. ur not being dumbed down negated punished. i think. there are few fears in this world none of them would be to degenerate or to decay or to disappear i think we all want to undersnd the truth and meaning of death but we want to believe the process is kinder. right now no matter what we do we have some way getting around that(our fears) but u think maybe this feeling of dread or fear may be result of some of our day to day actions. bc those die too. nothing remains. today i can succeed in. writing this piece and i may get off of that high for the rest of the day but tomorrow it’s a brand new day. a brand new page and it’s a hit or miss. much like any other objective u tackle while ur alive (and u handle ur losses the same as ur wins. u don’t attach to both. u just remain hidden in plain view smack dab in the middle of all and everything) . sometimes we err in our judgement and or may not realize our issues so we need another source for clarity. someone who can bounce ideas off of ur something. like. mirror that allows us to be like hey check me out. am i still kosher. is there a. mistake i made . i should be sensitive to these matters. attend to them when they are small bc when they get bigger it’s a bigger mess so it requires more to clean up and fix. and also it’s harder to detect so it costs more time to figure things out. a lot can happen interim.
weird thing about talking about spirituality is that ur actually gossiping about it. that’s the weird thing about it. but it’s so exhilarating. at least from where u stand to explore our reason , nature. nothing other than being a geek of these grounds and dream bigger about our potential. there’s nothing else. u don’t have to change ur mind bc what’s true resonates. much like our experiences in life. that resonate. we just have to move all the stuff in the middle of the way that obscure our excellence at times. and now are those times where really bad things are potent to happen but they don’t have to that’s the great past about spirituality bc if we learned smth then we won’t escalate things any further. it’s that’s simple.
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