what happens after u called everything as it is. called the wrong off. called it all off bc the whole thing is out of whack. it’s like forty years as forty weeks of gestation where at times u don’t even. know or understand what life is about. the great gap between what u know and what world teaches u is great indeed but not always in a positive sense. and the manufacturing of human beings is even greater. that bc we control the speed of development of all and everything as form of manipulating the otherwise natural course of events to unfold should give us a clue. ( or that it takes so much time energy effort to cultivate ur children only to see them get systemically wasted. either with wars that are as well know them or other forms of wars of internal knowing )
so ofc u can’t just fuck off the world after u denounce everything. there’s nowhere else to go to. wherever u go. they know ur name. they know ur face. even strangers will know what’s in ur heart perhaps in a way where their human selves may not conceptualize cognize or understand right away. ( it’s worse if they think they know bc those are harder to break. since they already took some manifest form and much like preconceived notions or biases
that makes things harder on us all in some way but ) but it’s there. bc we are always connected at all times. this is what it means to. be one. the illusion is clear but it obstructs the entire purview that’s why denouncement is key here bc when u chuck all that excess. all these useless ideologies we mistake to be stationary. only then do we get backstage pass to what’s really going on.
so ur not exactly denouncing ur love for the world. it’s easy to mistske denouncement as negativity or anarchy or even being a rebellion without a viable cause. it’s quite easy. bc u then develop the distaste for the general ways that have long been established themselves . such as sexual roles we play. which is the anti thesis to non binary mindset. bc we are so scared. that the most familiar identities we hold so dear that gives us some type of understanding about our reality and subsequently ourselves shall not be touched (not to mention this is harder to maintain. but some take the world shit and others take the shit that comes from their safe place. it’s the same we do it to ourselves as part of the unhealthy environment. bc the wanting to be better is there but it’s all misconstrued. since everyone competes for smth. albeit for peace of mind or funds or a reputable place on earth systems all u gotta do and all that is enough is to not feed the facades but it’s hard to do i know it’s hard. it’s not meant to be easy. it had generations caked on everything ). it’s very much how we see every man is the bread winner of every house and every woman clean cooks and takes care of the child. this is the norm. it’s when ever u see someone u must already use some type of preconceived notions that put u in a safe place in a n otherwise uncertain and unstable world. u wouldn’t want it any other way either bc . u wouldn’t want to know what people are really up to in their free time. who cares. let’s go with the normalcies of life. it’s quite predictable. it establishes mutual trust. things of this sort is fine. when u denounce everything u can still respect people at the baseline level where they have chosen for themselves the right approach to their portion of reality. so it’s really not that negative and not that big deal. the function of denouncement comes from not taking things seriously in the first place.
u say well that’s all good and well but did u know that all of this is concept of people like u and i. someone placed meanings to these things and then things developed from here. can u picture how different things would be if we only allowed the chance to choose differently ? when we want to? and how we wanna go about life without having to be forced into blind follow. especially at our formative years.
for example we see all this discrepancy with life and the world system. where at one side we wax poetic about how much we give a damn about family values and ethics and children. and on the other we must do the right thing for the greater good and drop bulbs on strangers children’s heads. there’s no distinction nor is there coherence in our logic here. the key here isn’t finding a person u can put all ur blamed into either. bc these things. stains on our conscience either by turning the other way. or supporting the adjacent cause ( bc it’s all the same. for example if we already come to this point antagonist only a few people is futile bc it’s by our attachment to reality. which ever portion of it attributes to our desires is what causes us to quickly swat the issue away or scapegoat it out of our purview ) don’t seem to go away. we have already must have allowed things to get this far. our only option is simplify first what’s in our way so we can see with unobstructed clarity. as things are as they have developed so that we are not giving into our conditionings (denouement is not giving up also. most may think oh ur giving up. why don’t u play the game it’s always been the way well that’s precisely why. whose game is it. who has advantage who rules behind the scenes who lie and control and at any cost get from point a to point b. i’m not here to play the game by ur rules i’m here to change it ) . bc they r sneaky. they are all there. ready to be mistook for a form established rooted in reality and in truths. it’s very hard to do. but denouncement isn’t to employ everything and live a void life. u will still face reality still participate in it. still talk to people and be open and altruistic. there is gonna be all kind of mental gymnastics. a workout for ur heart even. and cardio for ur brain. ur gonna be really honest and comfortable with ur errors of judgement. u will become humble and kind. where else do u think all encompassing love comes from (and u don’t. wanna have regrets later in life too when u get too frail
and old. ur vulnerable but not that silly breakable. u don’t wanna look back and be like oh i could have should have would have done this or that. and things look clear in hindsight so what u wanna do is use everything to its max use ur body use ur mind use ur heart use urself and be the instrument of smth better. without the competitiveness of it. use it. tire urself out. reach out stretch ur soul. that’s the full potential we speak. )
it doesn’t come from restrictions. of holding urself back. or too much discipline. bc at the end of the day we are all associative to meridian of truths that have established in the world as systems of allowance. and when we look to these. we can already tell that not everything is as it seems and this is gonna be a long arduous ride.
back to the gestation period that is ur whole life. the whole thing is representative of the baby forming in the womb. that’s the level of support and love as well as clear guidance we need in the world from a social support. until ur forty. by forty u establish the level of independence and intelligence to tske on bigger matters. but until then it’s all speculative. and in fact ur so young still u can’t let the dust settle. u can’t be blamed entirely either. (!) bc it’s hard to see. u don’t denounce either. maybe u denounce only that which makes u look bad or uncomfortable within. or you say u denounce everything and then get back to things . u replace one monster with another and not realize the comfort zone u allow urself to wallow in. ( which is why it’s enticing when ur indoctrinated to be smth ur not when the deal sounds sweet and predictability does not rise any red flags even if it does ur too desperate to care. u just want identity some type of relativity in this loud world. it doesn’t matter which u get. some one pays attention to u. that’s feels nice. most ur life ur isolated and alone. so naturally u will work to preserve this unhealthy relationship) ( and if made a mistake of judgment u keep going anyway bc u don’t wanna look in empty right away. u wanna look competent so yeah yes that was my choice even tho there was foul play) ( that’s how u crush ur heart also. imagine u get so strategic u must use all the space u got. so upstart piling all this crap over crap. one thing after another and next thing u know. u can’t even feel anything anymore. it’s all desensitized mass so then ur gonna need to really denounce stuff. i mean get all red in the face when u say i denounce rejoinder it’s like passing a very hard poop u must let go the inner gestation of what ur about to manifest in to ur life with all that unacknowledged intention of others and urs before it’s too late )
these are sneaky substances that creep up in our day to day living. hence where things need to get done. don’t get done in large world view. as mentioned yesterday at twitter in terms of how we think we equate self expression to a conversation and think it’s an accomplishment only to discover the next day and based on by others responses ( silence is one too ) we assume it’s understood but not always. all these strategies that work at large can also be found at smaller quantities n they play among us. but heading back to our own societal discrepancies where we emphasize importance of children and maybe people in general – cos u too are one. so ur not gonna ask for smth or wish smth less for them than u would wish for urself- so part of this denouncement allows us to get to that place of oneness even though u get one foot in this reality where everyone is tripping about their mortality for instance. bc u already did the foot work to get beyond all that. it doesn’t matter anymore. and this other foot in ur own shit so to say. the facades don’t hold. no matter how strong someone is to put it up over ur eyes. the whole the falls off all on its own why? bc there’s nothing that attracts it to keep in place. there is no bind. no entanglement. all is free thus. this is what denouncement does. but heading. back to children they don’t know that. our human nature and development depends on a healthy environment which isn’t even established so to expect smth good to come out of our subjective notions biases attachments desires and fears only stoke the fires at large. and our most adult behaviour work to contradict that. everyday. and we assume kids don’t see that.
but when u do knock on the door of some of these policy makers and confront them it is precisely bc they know what they r doing that they turn u down or pretend they didn’t hear all that. and ur use of satellites is actually wrong and causes more harm than good. people aren’t robots. they r not puppets to play with. they deserve to have a chance at this life whatever this trip is actually about bc we don’t know. u can be as religious as u want. all that is handed to u by another human being with flaws. u can read any book u want it’s all written by someone with severe side effects. even these words even i. ( the worst thing is info is used only to torment people who are forced to be stationary meaning they r threatened if they care or speak up or do smth. ur forced to run away for ur own safety. and u csnt worry ur forced to not care bc the whole thing is very heavy it crushes the soul not bc u can’t handle it but bc u are not allowed to help. it s sick game ) ( so u try to do the impossible. preserve the innocence of ur kids as long as u can until systems recognize ur son that do they do sneaky things to make u look bad and controlling and systems as liberating to steal ur kids the legal way it’s all a sick game. it shot that they care about them either. soon they will be just like u. just in a different conundrums. that’s a conundrum) ( there’s no getting away so no need to be quiet. so u denounce ur denouncement and talk about it:)
so there’s no need to make a hierophant of each other either. u denounce all that too the hero worship. who’s gonna save me theory. who cares go save urself. but u see it’s not that simple. u may denounce everything and lock urself in ur house and soon enough u will run out of needs that also includes human mutual conduct. and u don’t have to say but im small and helpless u don’t look around either to see who’s into what so u go do the same so next time cross paths u can be relatable. that’s the worst way to fill ur head with the nonsense in the world. u don’t memorize celebrity names and watch every stupid movie that’s on the top of the list of things to watch. u don’t listen to music that u don’t like n appropriate interest in things bc that’s all people got when they congregate. it’s either that or politics. and u can tell why people refuse to discuss the other one.
ok so we have life that’s gestation period one slow burn out images of worlds crap that by the time u r born a second time u go well i’m disabled.
bc the world tossed u around it kicked u when u were down it has its own contradiction that it wants to instill in ur mind asking u as it beats ur head. are u good. are u bad which one are u gonna be. it throws u to the ground and stomps on u. the next day it smiles at u. says ur loving kind and then ur form this unhealthy relationship with the world. in fsxt in the west there’s a cookie cutter people manufacturing machine that constructs human beings and keep them enslaved in their nonsense that flourished ( it’s like the best non recognizable weaponizing of people so u can either use them against each other. as a martyr or for some stupid wars overseas. it’s all the same) after u can say the whole existence did one big slavery. so is gestation since u can not safely object once u take on the mission u can’t eject urself or be there but also not be there or participate in matters of human concern, what’s the use of that. to be there and be useless as well ? it’s better to get thru this whole shit than be like that. open ur heart wide open and have faith. that’s that . but who do u wanna be most useful for is a better question bc u can be useful for someone else’s hidden agenda too or bias or brain wash or maybe they want to marionette u to say specific things for specific effects. we look for these signs. we depend on it base our decisions for the simple synchronicity around us and when the whole system gets septic there’s no need to deny truths or lie or continue using it. denouncement gives us that space to know ur worth and have choice in not playing that game.
but yes ur like what. tell me more about the animal crackers that is human beings manufactured to be terribly predictable even in their non binary states. bc it works to complement the entire system attempts to cover its ass from previous generetions. and that’s a scary things bc u will then say well we already know the previous gen didn’t get to have their reckoning. not in the way it was rightful for them. and u have basic understanding of how that works. so what doesn’t get done gets passed down and adds to the next gens tribulations so how then do u expect the cultivation of new on faulty ground. and what do u think that will produce. denouncement here does not mean ur in denial. that’s someone else’s job and they r getting paid very good for it. and the scarier thing is no matter how u go about it. u may do all the right things and follow all directions and dictions and whatever have u on self righteous path and still fuck things up bc not everything is in your hands.
and when ur born a second time something. wonderful happens it’s the silver lining no matter how unfair or difficult the path of ur gestation period. bc the world is not well the environment is sick did u think u we’re gonna come out not affected from any of it ? do we blame a disabled baby for being born the way it is ? ofc not. bc there are clear things that can scientifically proven as to why that even happens and how. it’s this and that objective . and yet we look at disabled like we are more perfect than them. we just haven’t truly opened our eyes to our own disability. it’s not always physical or mental either. and rightfully. bc remember this is a sick world. it contradicts its own word. it controls people and then makes it look like itself is never the problem. so the disabled are like pressing on that internal wound in a way. it reminds them their distortion. so it becomes easy to cast away someone that brings out the worst in u. or it’s not worst. it’s just ur perception of it. again. u allowed this to be ur nutriments during ur gestation period. no amount of surgery and medicine can cover its stench. bc it’s rooted in smth more than urself. 😃(and no matter ur conundrum it only crystallizes as much as u allow for it. if ur ready to shatter ur own illusions however that’s the denouncement ur looking for. u no longer wanna be taken for a fool or give up and die. they will say -it’s all downhill from here. u spent most of ur life dreaming of better days and the world says ur not relevant to be active part of it anyway u want ) ( scientific note that when we turn forty it’s the body that changes but the mind evolves further. the discrepancy is unless ur elite boss or autocrat old age is frowned upon which is. great miss. life doesn’t arbitrarily stop bc of some dumb number ) maybe denouncement can clear the path a bit. but it doesn’t stop there. either. there’s nowhere in the world where u can turn ur back to it and truly feel alone. but when u know u know and there nothing that can no longer have any effect on u. u become the shepherd in this world in the aftermath of its over. it’s done.. our images of illusion of our lives are just catching on. we are still holding onto life worrying. about our mortality. scared about the unknown it’s all taboo don’t say the word or it happens to u. death. repeat after me. death. it happens to all.
worst is when it happens to people when they r still alive. when their heads stop evolving and their minds stop opening and their souls stop growing . no. the soul keeps going with or without the human identity i think that’s where the juice of the grit of the mill is at. it’s the great gap of where ur own contradictions flourish. it’s where u trip urself. u spin urself where u are at and then get dizzy and get mad at nearest objective . or latch onto the nearest familiarity for self preservation at best. u look into others eyes begging for confirmation but i’m good. u can see that right ? not that either.
and when u denounce everything something wonderful happens. u no longer settle with the world way of what it means to be forty. u refuse to shut up and sit down u refuse or change r urself or hide urself either. bc u know urself and ur development and what’s in ur own heart. and that gives enough to keep doing the good work. denouncement works only that u don’t get deluded urself on ur journey between intense highs and lows bc this is arduous world and we haven’t figured out exactly how to get it right. the right balance of stark opposites. the sweet spot.
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