people don’t miss u when ur gone. ironically. people don’t tend to care much when u mean well and try to save them. most often than not. truths and facts fall on deaf ears as people continue to fuck around and find out for themselves . hence the conundrum. we hang out at this continual limbo that repeats itself. we become ghosts or shadows who watch from sidelines and calculate in our minds as we see things in play.

i don’t blame u tho. shit is literally that fucked. u get screwed in the head right from the cradle. we give ample room for folks to have as much sex as they wanna. make all the babies. and their choices and decision. “decisions “. or DeCiSiOns. the apparence of such is not only enticing but it’s also very convincing right ? u feel like the world is ur oyster and ur the beautiful pearl sitting at the center. everything caters to u. u don’t have to do anything and even if and when u do. it all works in. ur favour. until it doesn’t.

satellites and conniving attitudes. hidden plans that take place in ur sleep. and while i dream symbols that call out ur name. wait. how do they know my name. isn’t everyone i see in my dream but another version of myself. not always. unless we see everyone on earth also a version of us and even then the answers are just not enough.

then u get all these systems that love the newcomer but ignores the old and aging. it’s like hey u know u came and now u must go. and make room for the capitals system to shape up generation of buyers. but ofc. the buying option is also an illusion where ur only given choices of things ur allowed to have. but that’s for another conversation. let’s move along.

the freedom we get is the finding out the spiritual portion of our reality. things such as who are u. what are u made of. why are u here (aside from the obvious ) what is ur purpose. ur dreams. ur dharma ur karma whatnot. no. but the trick of the game is. no one is gonna tell u how to find that out. not to mention right from the start. as soon as u start to crawl (but in some intense cases this can happen as early as in the womb) ur told who u are and ur actions responses and reactions are assumed to be automatically known and spoken out. u don’t even have a choice to get to know urself let alone where u are and ur parents are like awww she’s thinking this and that put all kinds of characteristics on u where’s whatever is going on can be as simple as indigestion or sleep deprivation (and u can’t blame them either. u can’t blame people who never had chance or time to get to know themselves. they are all in a rush. we all are )

and it snowballs from there. u meet others and everything is popping with pop culture. instead of getting to know urself. u try to figure out how to be who to be and what not. u learn who not to be. what not to do. while those are fine. u also adopt the opposite. who to be. what to do. and how to do them instead of trusting urself and finding out for urself without all that external hoopla.

but u may say. well what’s wrong with all the extra information. it’s good but do u even know how to process information? we don’t even get to know that. take a look at education. ofc it’s different everywhere but it’s main objective is to teach u stuff and tell u stuff as opposed to teach u how to think for urself and future things out on ur own with guidance and leadership. we are told generally what to do bc not everyone is gonna be leaders and ceos of companies. there are other jobs that need filling. in fact. in the world most jobs require a good taking in the direction and doing as ur told. u have to follow company protocols and even lie for them. u may find urself doing things that if it was done to u. u would certainly not like it but well here u are thing to make ends meet so u either walk out of the job and find smth (good luck with that) that’s kosher and just (which is hardly ever. no matter what job u do ur gonna find smth that’s gonna but the heck out of u and make u wanna scream and shout. precisely bc we run on systems that are also figuring itself out. but i don’t know if we and or those who operate the systems do know that. bc we place way too much emphasis on perfection but. where is it. right ?)

or u whisper “it’s just business , man. nothin personal “. then u go home and spend althea rest of the day praying to whomever u worship or whatever cleanses ur soul of soul crushing job of screwing others over so u survive another day in the world.